Help? People who know about mental health.?

Okay, so I was at my school library and I found a book on shyyness and, because I'm extremely shy, I decided to check it out. I read the signs of being a psycosomatic and the withdrawn shy person part matched me completely right. When I was younger I hated being in team sports, I skipped recess to stay in class and if the teacher kicked me out, I'd go to the library or read in the halls. I also preferred to stay alone with nothing but rock music turned up really loud, painting and drawing tools, and books. I always played board games by myself and I've always hated being outside. At first I just thought I was lazy. I've always done my homework, obeyed everyone, got my way through flattery and since like sixth grade ( last year) I've hidden my emotions. When I want to cry, I don't. I wait until I'm alone and then just let the misery eat me. When I'm angry, I imagine bad things or think bad things. I'm never truly genuinely happy and I almost never smile. Since last year, I've obsessed over how I look and I usually call myself ugly or fat, cause I am. Ever since I started seventh grade this year, I hate walking in wide open and largely populated spaces( like class and the cafeteria) and I feel like everyone is staring at me, judging me, criticising me, whispering about me. It makes me feel uncomfortable. It's gotten so bad, I don't even like going outside anymore. I hate being looked or stared at, being touched in any way, and I hate having my legs or arms bear. I always wear black or another dark color, and I'm always wearing a black sweater. I get headaches and I have asthma, I have a bad heart, and I don't participate in P.E because I'm scared that everyone will watch me and say " look at that fat ugly girl running around." It makes me anxious and nervous just thinking about going outside. I'm usually sad for no reason and I write disturbing stories that my teacher say are wonderful. I usually paint or draw in black and white, spending hours on art and then just ripping it up because its not good enough. I don't evn know who the hell I am. If the popular kids talk to me, I act cool and snobby, if I'm with hyperish and upbeat people, I'm hyper too. If I'm with calm quiet people, I'm like that too. I adjust myself depending on the mood of whoever I'm talking to at the moment. If I dont act like them and I act what you could describe as emoish. I love the concept of death and yet, I also like faeries and romance. I practically hyperventilate thinking about wearing shorts or even leaving my room. I prefer to talk to adults than kids my own age and speak formally, as if I was born in the seventeenth century. I get pushed around and I dont defend myself. I just glare and let it happen cause I think " It'll just happen again" and it does. I'm pretty short, not like thats a problem, but combined with the fact that I'm usually carrying like six books a day and glaring doesn't exactly help. I hate smiling or laughing and I'm usually rude to my friends. I can't help it. Lately, my grades have dropped and I've been feeling like "What's the use" and " What's the point." I think of things like " What's the point in life". I've never tried killing myself, but I have thought of it. I'm just to scared to try. There's more, but this is already really long, so I'll stop. Please tell me what's wrong with me. : ( I'm alos usually twitchy and suspicious of any one who comes near me, especially boys. I don't trust very easily and I always cover my mouth when I talk.

I need help with my sexuality?

You think having sex with a girl is gonna help you? I'm sorry but thats not smart. I found who I was attracted last year(I'm 16 going on 17) so I would wait at least 1 year ok. Hope you do they right thing.

Confused on what to do?

Well my ex-friend and i stopped being friends about a few months ago (Our fight was pretty bad.. she evn got my boyfriend to dump me too) and i just cleaned out my room and found a box of stuff i was gonna give her on graduation day (just a bunch of nick-naks and a small scrapbook) and i cant decide wether or not to put the box in her mail with a note saying its hers do wat she wants with it, or just trash it... Help plz? be honest

My LandLord is suing me need advise?

Okay My ex landlord is suing me for $5,000; however i do not owe him that amount he state i owe damage, i must confuse the only damage done to the place was the door. which cost $25 at home depot. and 3 month rent totaling 3,750. the damage should be cover in our security deposit. and plus the reason i moved as i no longer could afford it and i explain my situation. i also no longer had a lease. the apartment needed repair. the celling had fell from a leak he never looked into just cover it and leaked continue to leak. the heater in the apartment was locked by our electrician because the heater was leaking to much C02 that was haz and for two year the landlord never fixed it. the lights switch never had cover on them so it would spark up when you when turn it off sometime causing the fuse to pop. and the hallway light never were on. it was so dark in there. i never complain and when i explain i can not afford this apartment and i was willing to surrounding it,it was okay i don't mind paying him what i owe little by little but i do not owe him $5,000. i need help and advise on what should i do. or what route to go.

Which game console would be better to own?

say can anyone help me?ive been trying to convince my little brother to get an xbox360 instead of a ps3 cause i hear alotta ps3z are slow and burn out fast and are like defective..now dont get me wrong im with playstation all the way..i want him to get an xbox360 because of that fact i heard alotta the ps3z are defective and i wanna get the new silent hillz and resident evil five so haz anyone had the chance to compare these two consolez and doez anyone know which console would be better to get??thankz for the help..

Did I eat too much today?

Most likely not, all of your food choices are relatively healthy and you are getting a good amount of exercise so don't worry yourself.

I am looking for romance Amine, Where the characters end up married?

definately CLANNAD, it has a solid couple and they even get married and have a kid in the second season

PLEASSSEE READD!!!! its a relationship prob?

ok so ive known this girl since i was veeery little. but she moved and i hadnt seen her or heard from her untill about a year ago. im 22. and since shes been back weve been talkin and stuff as friends and she would flirt with me vise versa and then she got a bf as did i with a gf. and evn then wed still talk but as friends and then one day my parents were at her parents house for a party being thats how we met so long ago, and i went over o say hey to her since i havnt seen her in a long time, and her bf was there so it was kinda akward. but when i was there i could tell she has feelings for me by the way she lookd at me and acted and then when i left i didnt hug her or anything cuz she was taken. we txted after i got home and she said she really wanted to hug me goodbye and stuff. and weve been txtin on and off everyonce and a while since. but about 2 monthes ago she broke up with him and i can tell shes interested in me. but heres the prob. i have a gf still and have had one for about a year and a month. and im head over heels in love with her and i think shes the one. but ive liked this other girl before i started dating my gf now. and idk if i should risk anything to see if i feel anything with the other girl or not. what should i do?

Why do ppl talk about God and Jesus if they dont believe in them?

I find it funny when people talk madd krap about God or the bible or people who believe in God when theyre jus running their mouth about something they dnt evn believe in! I mean if they rlly ddnt believ in God then why would they say he doesnt exist or stuff like tht?uhh HELLOO!OBVIOUSY IF YOU TALK ABOUT GOD THN YOU MUST BELIEVE IN HIM OR THINK THEIRS SOMETHNG THERE RIGHT!cause if you really ddnt believe in him thn you wouldnt have nothing to say!i dnt hear nobody complaining about zeus and all these other gods tht never truly existed...or do you rlly believe they did? so do yourself a favor and shut yer mouths:)

"Me haz lotz of monay problemos?"?

whenever i go to buy food the person might tell me the bill is like $50 so i give them $500... and then walk away. is this a bad thing? and when i go out to resturants with friends the bill is like $60 will all of us. and i tip like $600 and walk away.. i…don't know what I'm doing wrong.

What to wear to a country club?

Don't wear rompers ... Were a bikini under stretchy skirt & a tank top or halter top w/ tennis shoes (pumas) .. But bring flip flops with you ! If your gunna play a sport wear the right thing

Can i have a free high leveled runescape account?

hay i really need a high leveled runescape account every one at school haz a way high leveled accounts (in the hundreds) and im so low ( level 36) im non mem so i can level fast please send the info to sniper.artist@hotmail.com.au plzz

How to divert his mind from my body?

i really like the way you set up your limits with your bf,i dont think most of the gals have such morals now a days.but surely,you need to understand one thing.it's always us,who turn the other one on by whatever deeds we do.when you are very sure of your limitis,you should have controlled him in the early stage..when you start indulging in physical touch like kisses and hugs,no man on this earth can resist,you shouldn't have done it if you don;t want to take the action to further like sex.

Is she interested in me?

hey i found a girl in my clg she's gud luking nd famous nd is in some other class i think she likes me coz i always found her looking at me she evn passed smiles once or twice we rarely met nd nvr talked bt we met on fb she immediatly responded chated nd she told me dat she is impressed by my guitar playing nd singing (i m also gud looking i always hear dis frm many people i am also a winner of a modelling competition) any way she asked me wud i teach her guitar nd singing i said i wud be fine bt right now i am busy for few days i told u wen i m free..so wat do u people think is she really interested in me as thr r so many guys who want her cz she is hot too...so wat shud i do now??

What do i do about this crap!!! my fiance is completly shut down. sexually. mature answers only ppl.?

ok weve been together for 2 yrs and for the first like 8 months we had mind blowing sex almost every night and sometimes more than 1ce!! but about a yr ago he stopped trying. it started getting dull so i did things to try to spice it up. ive always been more kinky at heart but hes a "love making" kind of guy and that didnt bother me. but i bought toys and took yoga so id be evn more limber and its like in the last 2 months weve done nothing. . . at all. he says he loves me and kisses me everyday but if i try to push for more he totally blows me off. makes excuses. . . wat do i do to fix this? cuz the last time we did anything it was straight forward missionary boring no forplay sex like ppl have with complete strangers and im just weirded out by it.

Which one of these games is the best?

I was surprised at how good Red Dead was, It's like a GTA game but 10x better. I've played the demo for RE5 and it looks wicked fun I'm gonna get that next. Ratchet and Clank's always fun. I haven't played it but Uncharted was rated really high by critics.

Can crested geckos eat....?

Can my crested gecko eat low fat banana yogurt,peach and mango applesauce low sugar,calcium dust/powder,and some rep-cal herptivite once a serving? This is the schedule i wanted to stick to: Mon-Wends.-CGD,Thurs.-dusted mealworms and crickets,Fri-Sund.-my new homemade CGD mixture? Please only if you KNOW WHAT UR TALKING BOUT answer this because its for my geckos safety,if you sorta unsure please look it up first on like pangea or repashy please so my baby gecko doesnt die!! Thank you

Why are you not at school/work?

i had to go to school earlier to do my biology test but then i came home because i haz the stomach flu :(

Does hair colouring actuli spoil ur hair?

i hav seen ppl havin colourd their hair nd i feel it actulli luks gud to see thm in tv , screens and all but sm of thm look so artificial...bt nwadays the hair dyes are soo natural and looks awesumnn ..is hair colourin relli harmful to hair ? i ve heard the dyes evn lead to cancer but look at ppl most of dem hav colord their hair nd their hair is soo healthy lookin and perfect! is it really harmful guys ? ppl who hav colourd thier hair plz share ur experinece..i lik my shiny black hair too bt i m curios to colour my hair..soo plz share ur experince guys!

Question about additives to drinks to help boost weight loss?

are the crystal light metabolism+ green tea peach mango affective, with exercise, to help lose weight, or are they just packets of sugar that are useless? I used them two or three summers ago, and it dropped me from 220lbs to 170lbs, and I was only 5'5", and 12 Now, i have muscle, am 5'9", 15, and 205lbs caused by my huge and heavy frame. I intend to lose weight, by swimming a hour- hour 1/2 a day, but want to add a touch to burn more fat by using crystal light to boost my metabolism, but want to know that if they actually work and will work for me?