I THINK MY DEPRESSION IS GETTING WORSE. :((?

Hey, I know how you feel. I have had depression for five years and it just got worse and worse until I was constantly shaking, and crying and being a total mess. I too, lost interest in everything and I started cutting. i sat my dad down and told him about everything-it was a very teary few hours and It made me feel worse then ever, but that hard part is over. you really need to go to a doctor. Your health means more to your family then money. they will want to help you, trust me. the feelings you have described is everything that i feel, but telling my dad, and letting him take me to the doctors is the best thing i have ever done. Seriously. So you need to talk to your dad and ask him to go talk to a doctor or something. Or, you can try your hardest to just think positively. I know it's hard- all your mind wants to do is stay in its dark place. You tell yourself over and over that you want to be happy, but then at the same time, your mind tries to keep you in that dark place. So Just try really really hard, eat healthy, maybe find a new hobby and spend more time around people. I know I tend to forget about my depression the more i am around people and family. At least when we're doing something interesting. I hope this helps. I wish you all the best- we all need it