Not her friend anymore but awkward feeling?

you see me and my friend had a big fight, and now shes acting like im not her friend, but i really dont care for now cuz i realized she'll *** bak, but if she doesnt then its ok cuz she already haz enough problems like bad days EVERY day. so for now im not her friend but i just hate the feeling, because i used to be her friend, and it just feels awkward when im not her friend, especially when i see all those doodles we drew on my stuff, im like "who drew that? shes not my friend!" are we so awesome together that we will wind up being friends again?? or not? cuz she used to LOVE me.